today i'm remembering my friend jennie. 28, married with a 2 year old son and known and loved by so many people. she died 4 years ago today of cancer.
can't really describe how i feel today apart from the obvious 'emotional'. i can't explain why jen's cancer and death hit me harder than losing some of my extended family members. i guess the difference is that i am not crying for myself today. i'm not crying about how much i miss her or how i miss our friendship, though i obviously do, but how awful it was for 'us' as a community to deal with her death and live without her.
rather mystifyingly, jen's illness and death brought me so much. i feel selfish when i admit that through her circumstances, many friendships were forged and i now count many of her family and friends amongst my closest friends. friends in a life that was lonely and loveless, friends who have saved me from a meagre existance.
she wasn't a saint by any means, that's not the purpose of this post. she was a wickedly funny, vibrant and caring friend who had such a massive impact on both my professional and personal life and i'd like to thank her for that today.
love you jen [::]
i think she'd be happy to hear that [::]
ReplyDeletepositive things can come from the most horrible of situations.